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I am in a nice mood today, inspite that outside everything is Grey.
I often think about different things now. About happiness and soul, for example. Earlier event haven't time to read books. But this year i decided to change my life.
I wish to change it cardinally. A lot of things i do in wrong manner.
But cardinally changes are dangerous - and i understand this very good.
That's why i will try to change my life smoothly. I will be happy everyday inspite of the weather.
My friends yesterday had a traffic accident - a car run into their car.
Nobody has suffered but anyway this is not a pleasant accident. I told to my friends not so long time ago, that they summon the problems by themselves, because they every time speak about them.
Now i'll not speak with them on this theme. Hope they will understand.
I am listening to my favourite songs of Beatles and enjoy the life!
Today I came to the work absolutly broken.
This night was terrible.
The Moon was has shined to my window nearly all the night, and a half of night i coudn't understand why i couldn't sleep.
This was like a fight with mosquitoes at summer night.
Only when the moon hid i fall a sleep.
Also this spam doesn't give me to live properly. My e-mail is full of it every morning. And not only mine!
I think that if somebody sells a programm, which will show us the adress of a man who sents this spam, a lot of people will buy this programm.
I - definitely!
And after i offer a vann of shit, sorry for this rudeness, and will strew it on a car of this bastard.
I think we can live only about two hours without worries. On the other hand it is good that i have something to care about. I feel pity for those who walking near a shop window look disappointed, they want to buy something and don't have possibility to do this. They believe their happiness stands at this window shop. I have such a friend and I feel pity for her. I would like to become a wizard and help people, this could make me happy. It seems to be a childish dream. By the way wizards have a very good quality they never get old.
I use to have the strange feeling when everithing goes fine that this will not take very long. This must be the reason why I try to keep a certain state of neutrality towards what is happening in my life, because this is the only way to avoid troubles. It is very hard for me to keep this state as I want to feel around me happiness. I want to jump like this or higher, to ride a horse, swim by aquaplane, travel in time and see the the future. I want to discuss with Hans and Amanda on my favorite pictures from the bar. Yesterday we had to meet, but something else appeared and the meeting didn't take place. How I want to live with no worries at least a year only laing on the sand watching the clouds. This is me...
I would like to have a house, not very big , comfortable and clean. I hire an apartment and there are days when i wonder, when i will have my own house?
I do not know the answer yet, hope to find out soon.
One of my sisters went with her boyfriend to Alaska, i can not wait for her to write or call me, there is nothing worse than to sit and wait. I her place i would choose to go to Cyprus this is an exotic place with very beautiful places and a lot of monasteries, this is a good place for rest, i would like to have a house there.
Buddhism is one of the major religions in the world. It began around 2,500 years ago in India when Siddhartha Gautama discovered how to bring happiness into the world. He was born around 566 BC, in the small kingdom of Kapilavastu. His father was King Suddhodana and his mother was Queen Maya. The Buddhism appeared from a very strong desire to know the truth about life and stop the pain. From all religions i feel more close to it, i believe in the answers Buddhism gives about sens of life, and how we have to live in order to find happiness. It is unexpected that in order to be happy you have to forget about your self.
Summer! Because of it's hot weather, this is the most difficult season for me to pass. This Sunday was with my friends at a picnic in the wood, near to the lake. I did not have such a rest for a long time, my friend Ken brought a good wine and Eddy told us so many jokes that we almost died of laughing.
At night i had a dream about sea. Being at work i choose where to spend my next Summer. Of course i would like to go somewhere in an exotic country, for example Cuba, but the flight till there is expensive. Maybe someday i will go there, who knows what brings the future? Only God.
A couple of months ago I bought a new car for myself. I am fond of BMW automobiles, and of course my choice number one is BMW 7 series. It was a smart investment. The benefits of owning a BMW rise above conventional wisdom. So much so, it's a car that both sides of your brain will love to drive. I am even ready to move to my new car and to sleep in it. I have never thought I can have troubles with the car. However, if it breaks on a high way, what should I do? How to change a wheel? I hope I will not have to do it myself
Yes, I wouldn’t like to deal with heavy things. I always have my cell phone with full battery but who knows what can happen with me… I just hate stoppong every car with the hope that the driver will be so kind to help me. This is not my style at all. I still have to find out the answer about the changing wheels.
It is the last glass of Champaign. Or something stronger. How it is wonderful that between my friends there are no such people that like to stay for long time in a bar. My friend Brandon told me that he had a period, that he couldn't stop drinking beer. Every evening he was spending in a bar, until he understood that it's time ton stop. He has a strong will. And I, just started to learn German, and I feel that I will need to gather my last strength, for not giving up.
I had a very strange dream.
I was asking everybody my friend I met on my way about my friend whom I did not see many years. One stranger told me that he knows where my friend is now. For some reason I asked my friend’s phone number and this one eyed person tried to lead me to my friend - he said it’s close.
What's the drift of all this?
